Tonight was so great.

I met a new boyyyy.
He is so cute
and is the nicest and most caring guy I've ever met.

Like, when I told him I was going on a walk and it was dark, he told me to be careful and to bring a flashlight, and I thought to myself "No guy I've ever dated, or practically anyone, has ever seemed to care enough to say things like that". I know that sounds somewhat cynical, but I dunno.

I really like him.

yooboo<3

Hello December!
Bonjour Decembre!
こんにちは12月！
안녕하세요 12월!

Anyway, enough fun with translators.

I want to make a long blog, but it's late so I won't.
Wait til tomorrow, kids!

I do have to talk about my English class today.

Wait no, I'm too tired too.
I promise tomorrow I will!

In a nutshell,
I still adore my teacher. He's really cute
He is the most engaging and fun teacher ever.
I'm SO taking AP Social Justice next year.
Today was a good day.

Love you guys!

Holy freaking shit, it's been nearly two months since I've posted a blog.

So much has happened since October 4th.

I haven't been doing too well with a few things;
I did drugs for hopefully the FINAL time on Halloween. I've been going to meetings every week since that day, and I'll have 28 days sober on Saturday.
School hasn't been too good lately, but I started taking Adderall, which is an ADD medication, and I've been focusing much better lately. So I am thankful for that. Whoo prescriptions. Anyway.

Other than that, I've put a much larger emphasis on being friendly with people, and being more social. I went shopping for new clothes in October, and I have to say, I look pretty damn good in my new clothes.

I've also been on the computer doing much more productive things, and looking for a JOB. Man, I need a job.

The social part of school has been alright, although one of my very good friends who graduated last year was on suicide watch because her boyfriend of two years broke up with her, so that was a scary thing.

I've also noticed that I am drinking a lot of coffee. Like, a lot. It kind of scares me, to be honest hahaha. I get coffee in the morning, I get coffee after school on Wednesdays, and I get at least three coffees on the weekend if I go out. So yeah, my new addictions are SHOPPING AND COFFEEEEEE. :]

Ever since I've been taking my new ADD medication, I've been less hungry, so that is helping me a lot in losing weight. Now, before you freak out and go all "RYAN DON'T STARVE YOURSELF!! THAT'S BAD!", I'm not starving myself. I actually went to a nutritionist who looked at my brain, and told me that my hypothalamus registers thirst as hunger. So when I'm severely dehydrated, my brain says that I'm hungry. So I eat constantly when I really just need water. But, since I've been taking the Adderall, the nutritionist said that my hypothalamus seems to be making a miraculous turn-around. It now registers thirst as thirst and hunger as hunger. So I'm very happy about that. The only drawback to the Adderall is that it keeps me up. A lot. But, I can't simply blame it on the medicine, because, as stated previously, I have a lot of coffee. Hahaha. So far, I've gone from 196 to around 193 in a week and a half. Good, eh? Yeah, good. ;D My goal is around 155, and hopefully I reach it by February. Or something around there. c:

In other news, I just realized my lack in music diversity. Everyday, I generally listen to a combination of the following artists;
Lady Gaga
LMFAO
SHINee
DBSK
Super Junior
Dark Oscillators
DJ Ravine
The Crystal Method
Rain
Big Bang
The entire Hardcore Addiction 2 album
2NE1
Epik High
and 2PM

I sometimes mix some other people into it, but it's not enough diversity. Now, previously I would only use Pandora occasionally. Very, very, VERY occasionally. Eventually I deleted the app off of my iPod. But today, when I was en route to shopping heaven, my friend Sarah was listening to a ton of R&B, which I have grown a new love for. Just today. So, as I write this blog, I am listening to Pandora. And I love it. A lot <3. I'll probably get some new music soon, because I am deprived. Severely deprived. I'll make it my mission this weekend to broaden my music interests. I can't keep going on listening to the same crap. On a lighter music note [see what I did there? haha], I have heard some new styles of music which I love. Thank you, new music Tuesday at Starbucks! Every Wednesday (Almost), I go to Starbucks and get the free song because I'm addicted to their music. One of my favorite artists via Starbucks is Diane Birch. She's so great! I love her! But, if you've got some fantastic music that you think I may like, you should let me know :p

NEWS: So, HELLOGOODBYE just came on Pandora. I haven't listened to them in about two or three years. Gotta put that onto my list of HELL YES DOWNLOAD THAT SHIT, GIIIIIRL.

Recently, I've been making videos. Well, I haven't made them lately due to extenuating circumstances, but I should get back into the swing of it soon. I'm making a video tonight/tomorrow talking about my EPIC week. So expect it soon! :]

I've had a Twitter account for about six months now. I didn't really use it often, until I got Twitterrific for my iPod. Now I tweet ALL THE TIME! I love it! Follow me, if you want: shutuphijinx. I'm thinking of getting a new Twitter account, because I don't like shutuphijinx. Haha. If you have any good ideas, toss 'em my way.

Let's see... what else can I talk about. Hmmm... OH! Recently, I've realized how gay I truly am. Several times, in English class, I have been stereotypically gay. Like, flaming homosexual status. We were going over vocabulary and one of the words was "abhor". We have memory clues for the word, and someone said Britney Spears. I, without even thinking, said something along the lines of "OH HELL NO GIRL, YOU DID NOT JUST DIS BRITNEY. YOU CAN'T EVEN TOUCH THAT, GIRLFRIEND. MMMMMM NO WAY GIRL. NOT HAP'NIN. DON'T EVEN TRY!" and Jayme and Stephanie broke out laughing, and so did Mr. Wood. Who, I must admit, I have a small crush on. English and AP Biology are my favorite classes. The teachers are awesome, and I have the most fun in those. Mr. Wood is so engaging when he talks about, well, anything really.

This blog is really long. Sorry about that. But, if you've read this far, I commend you.

I don't think there is much else to talk about besides this week.

This week was freaking amazing, I have to say. We had a three day school week, which wasn't bad, it just felt MUCH longer than it really was. After school on Wednesday I had lunch with my girls and some guys from our school. We all drank coffee and listened to music and it was fantastic, haha. Then after that I came home and screwed around for a while, and went on a long walk, which was amazing as well. Then on Thursday, we had an... unconventional turkey day. We were originally going to go to the Snoqualmie Casino to have an all-you-can-eat buffet, but it turned out that no one really felt well, except for myself and my cousin. So my grandmas friend comes in and says "Why don't we get Pizza?!" and I was like "Dude, really? Pizza. Pizza on THANKSGIVING? REALLY? No, I'll look for places that cater Thanksgiving dinners. For real" But, unfortunately, like, everyone was closed. So at the last minute, we went to QFC and bought those microwaveable dinners for Thanksgiving. And, my aunt, being as incompetent as she possibly could be, microwaved the ALREADY WARM turkey, and when I went to have some, it was chewy and hard. Normally, any kind of bird from QFC is very tender and delicious, but she just effed it up. So I was like "Yeeeeeah, I'm just gonna have one of my chicken dinners". So I did. And it was DELICIOUS. Those things never cease to make me completely and utterly satisfied at dinner time. Hahah. Then, after that, I went on the computer and screwed around for a bit, but I knew I had to go to sleep somewhat early so I could wake up at 5am to get ready to go shopping. 9:30 rolls around, still on the computer. "I'll go to bed soon". 10:30 rolls around "Shit, I need to go to sleep." So I get off and go upstairs. Then I go on to watch Mythbusters. 11:15 creeps up on me and I'm like "Okay seriously, I'm fucked if I don't go to bed soon". 12:11 rolls around and I'm like "OKAY DUDE, REALLY, GO TO SLEEP". So I finally went to sleep after I set my alarm for 5. I wake up to my friend blowing up my phone at 6:54. Five minutes before I was supposed to leave for Alderwood. So I get ready in fifteen minutes, and look pretty freakin' good. Then we left and went to get her paycheck and I bought everyone Coffee. That's coffee #1 of the day. Then after Sarah got her check, we departed for Alderwood mall. We got to Alderwood mall and I have never seen so many people in such a small area. For real. SO MANY PEOPLE! Remarkably though, we got a parking spot in like, two minutes. Praise Buddha, amirite? Yeah, I am. :P So we continue to go shopping, and I see many many cute guys. Like, a lot. Especially in Urban Outfitters and Metro Park. Fast forward a few hours, and we end up looking for a movie that's playing. We wanted to see Ninja Assassin, but no theater was playing near us for around the time we wanted. So we were like, screw it, let's go see New Moon. I hadn't seen New Moon yet, so I was like, "Whatevs, I don't mind". It was SO GOOD! I haven't seen the first Twilight movie, so I was kind of lost. But it was still good. teamjacob:3. Then after that, we went to dinner with Sarahs mom, and it wasn't bad. I had me some FRIED PRAWNS. Pretty good, I gotta say. Then I had coffee. That's coffee #2. After that we screwed around in Bellevue, and we went to the fountain and people watched for a bit. Then got some more coffee. Coffee #3, mind you. After that, Sarahs sponsor wanted to meet with her, so we went toward my house and got coffee. Again. Final coffee of the night, coffee #4. So I'm pretty sure I won't sleep well for the next three months, yeh? Whatever haha.

Epic wall of text, right? Yeah.

We went to Urban Outfitters, Hot Topic, and Metro Park. UO and MP are extremely expensive. BUT OH MY GOD I LOOK SO FREAKING GOOD IN MY NEW CLOTHES! I got an eskimo hat. I love my eskimo hat.

But this blog is getting too long, so I'll see you soon! I promise to blog more often, if any of you like, still read my blog. Which is doubtful.

Love you guys!

Miso board.

C WHUT I DID THAR?

Anyway
So much fucking homework
procrastinating even more


currently listening ; britney bitch. <3


Essay ho!

Fuck Sandra Cisneros and fuck The House On Mango Street.

FU.

It's been a while.
Like, a long while.

Lolol.
Sorry about that guys!
School is crazy, and I've been crazy busy.

I've been good, been listening to LOTS of Korean music.
<33

And the Yeah Yeah Yeahs! <3333


Ah man.

Drama sucks ass.

Hopefully it's fixed soon.


Oh and if you read this
Get your fucking head out of your ass.
I hate you.

Then I met someone
And eh, there's nothing else I can say

Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish he never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh

I am in such an odd mood right now.

I just.
I like him so much, and it's not the right time.
I need a man.
I can't keep being single. In september it will have been two fucking years since I've dated anyone.
Normally I wouldn't care.

But it's just.
Ugh.
I hate being gay sometimes.
Why the fuck is it so hard finding someone.
I'm going to stop writing this part because I'm about to cry.

But. In any event.
Today was pretty good.
Got some applications turned in.
And I think I have a chance to get a job Cinnabon or Build a Bear. Due to the fact that the other three places didn't take a once-over of my application. I mean, Jamba Juice is going to have openings pretty soon because I know tons of people are going to quit within the next two weeks. So I'll be sure to call them in two weeks.

So around Thursday next week, I'll probably call all of them back. Because Cinnabon is holding interviews next week, and I'm not sure about BaB.

Regardless, I need a job. So badly.

I don't have much else to say besides
i want a man.

Oh god.

Today was amazing
Im so pooped.


And I have special brownies! LOL.
Jaykay, they're normal brownies.
Very good brownies :3


Have a good week everyone <3

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